Week 31 – Evaluate Your Impact

I will aspire to write this reflection using Rolfe’s (2002) model of reflection, while at the same time remaining positive about my journey so far.

What?

I feel as though I have not achieved my inquiry, not even slightly. Which I know is fine, because ‘it gives me something to reflect on’ but I also feel like a bit of a let down. I want the kids to achieve, and I want them to be able to see what they need to do to achieve. I just feel that I need to do a lot of pre teaching around it and I haven’t been able to make the time with all of the other curriculum expectations that I can’t seem to keep up with.

So what?

Do I just give up then? At times, I feel like I am not cut out for this job. I feel that I am not doing enough, that i’m not building strong enough relationships, that i’m not giving the best experiences I can (bit deep for a Tuesday night!), and that has made it hard to focus on this inquiry. I also feel like my expectations of the school and my assumptions about the community that helped structure this inquiry are also completely different. I feel like i’m not doing enough.

Now what?

Now, I suck it up, and push through. I am really, really disappointed with the way this inquiry has turned out. I am even more disappointed that i’m holding out for 30%. I love my inquiry topic, and I really want it to be successful. So now, I take a breather over the break. Reassess my community and the needs of my stakeholders, and I start again next term, with an adapted plan for the students in my classroom.

References:

Rolfe, G., Freshwater, D., Jasper, M. (2001) Critical Reflection Model. Retrieved from: https://my.cumbria.ac.uk/media/MyCumbria/Documents/ReflectiveModelRolfe.pdf